As the timelines collapse – and they are collapsing – as one by one, each individual releases the role that they have long mistaken as their identity, we are witnessing something of a collective humpty-dumpty event, never to be put back together again. The breaking of the timelines happens as the roles that carry the timelines, as egos, fall away. If people around you are falling into silence, if you are falling into silence, take it as a great sign. For silence is an aspect of peacefulness, as standing in the eye of the storm, of releasing all that swirls around you as something that is not who you are, and never was.

It is getting more and more challenging to write during this time, as I am inclined to stay in silence. I don’t write what I write here in order to chase popularity or to spread a message. I just hope it provides some form of light for those who need it at this time, one of the most if not the most difficult times in human history.

Many of us will witness or are already witnessing the dissolution of beings that we thought were central and essential to our lives. When they dissolve from us, it is at that point when we have no choice but to let go. This can be very difficult when we are focused on what we believe to be as essential to us as an arm and a leg. But if we can move away from the pain and suffering, we can then realize that we are actually now freer than we once were, and that we didn’t “need” those things in the first place. Nature always provides what we need and takes away what is no longer needed. It is at that point, when we begin to understand the true experience of freedom and autonomy, as if it were hidden from us for thousands of years – and that is because it has been hidden from us for thousands of years.

So, when nature, through the magic of storms, steals things away from our grasp, we can either attempt to chase what we think belongs to us, or surrender, knowing that nothing belongs to us. What she is taking from us are the many stories we hold about ourselves and others: our judgments, our analyses, our understanding of “reality”, even our ideas about spirit and God. All of these are being released from each one of us, in a manner that is best suited to our intentions on this planet. Time and timelines only exist through our intention and the energetic momentum we feed into them be engaging our energy and our force. This is why, once we reach the point of seeing what they are, we find it difficult to understand how we could have ever felt victimized by life in any way.  But that truth, that we have chosen the entire structure and direction of our life, is difficult to swallow, when we are playing a role inside that structure that depends that we play the victim. Once the ego attaches to that role, it becomes a matter of survival if anyone challenges its authenticity. That is why the ego clings to its ideas, opinions, people, places: it has convinced YOU that it IS you and so essential to your existence. But the ego is always a relative entity and can find no autonomy without relating to the outside world. It’s entire existence depended on neediness and clinginess and the desperate desire to be heard and loved. I will get to that in a bit.

Fear Energy

The timelines of ego, as set up, have been configured to utilize Fear as an energetic reservoir. Our society, for thousands of years, has been energetically formulated out of the cumulative currency that is fear. We are a people who have been enslaved by a ruling class, that transcends governments, and works through bloodlines. It uses all form of law and order in order to hide the power that it truly wields. It keeps the populations of earth controlled through breads and circuses, of various form and nature. A population that is driven by fear is constantly looking for safety and salvation, whether that is through the attention of other people, through religion, through material gain, or success. The ego seeks redemption in a manner that aligns with the form of its trauma. Children, born into this currently dying society, are born into trauma, because the adults have been trained to confuse love with abuse: overbearing/overprotective parents, always seeking a way to make sure that they “succeed” in life, and that they are setup for their glorious career of making money enough to pay most of it in taxes, to make sure that they get married and setup a lifestyle similar or better than their own, to seek the advice of experts and rulers – anything rather than themselves. Some parents go in the opposite direction, completely disinterested and even physically abusive, neglectful, and are too absorbed in licking their own trauma wounds, to care even a little about the education of their children. Regardless of the particular abuse performed, this “dream” of parents has been perpetuated through all sorts of channels: entertainment, media, education, psychology, and experts on parenting and family upbringing. The society is entirely brainwashed into thinking that they know how to raise children and what is good for them. Little do they know that this “knowledge” contains forms of though that are fueled by the very fear that creates it, only to further perpetuate a lack of trust in self, a firm faith in authority, and the society into which the parents are fully indoctrinated, one way or the other. If anything, all children learn that the truth “is out there”, and not from within. Even those who know that wisdom comes from within, hold excessive doubt. It can take years to trust oneself, to trust that only you know that you can heal yourself through Source energy; that you can know something about and reach other people far beyond physical proximity, that you can create synergy through the abundant nature of love and soul. Most people, even those who claim spiritual wisdom, spend most of their energy on 3D efforts – publishing books, finding platforms by which to persuade and encourage others, to create and find love with which to lure people in, to organize people and to “get them onboard”, to spread the word. All of that energy is possible due to the manipulation of fear energy: the fear of annihilation; the fear of being unloved; the fear of being useless.

Now let’s see where that fear originates from, and so give ourselves guidance on how to reclaim our energy through the love that we are born into.


The core trauma: Love is lost

The first and core trauma of each one of us is some form of threat to our safety. It doesn’t matter whether it is emotional, physical, or mental. It is all the same to a young baby or toddler.  They learn very quickly that they need to rely on their parents to support them and provide the safety they need. If they don’t experience that safety, they quickly turn to fear-based behavior, such as anxiety, an inability to focus on play, a desire to please and keep the adults in a good mood. The child becomes hyper-aware of their surroundings, in order to protect themselves from the parent who could cause them harm in some way. This is deeply traumatic. Not only does the child not experience the openness of play, and the wonder of exploration due to fear and insecurity, they themselves are having to perform what should be the role of the parent: to keep themselves feeling safe, loved, and cared for. That sense of safety, and love, would have allowed the child to trust, not only the parents, but themselves most of all. Many parents will do what they think are loving actions, but there are no number of positive behaviors that the parent can do or imitate if they are not accompanied by a true intention of giving space for the child as a being whose essence is love. The intention must be to give the child space to play and absorb themselves in their own curiosity. This enrichment of wonder and curiosity is the core essence of soul and is the manifestation of love, attention, connection.  It allows the child to maintain that connection with themselves in order so that they practice loving themselves as a natural, daily way of life.

But children are not raised that way. They are raised to learn that love is something they need to earn, and if they don’t earn it, then they will be deprived of it.  The parents believe that they child will be healthy if they know that the parent loves them. You see, the parents themselves don’t know themselves as beings of love, and think that the child should “get love” from them! Love then, instead of being who they are in life, is then something that they must work hard for, to seek, to make happen in someway through proper behavior, performance, etc. It is at that very moment that true curiosity and wonder, the natural direction of the soul, leaves the child. It is at that moment, when the child’s trauma is realized, and they find themselves in a labyrinth of enticements and promises of potential love in all sorts of unfounded areas. Here, authenticity is lost and the child grows up, willingly participating in relationships, and adventures that promise him or her the love she “never got from her parents”.   Again, the premise is wrong. The love is never to be gotten from parents. Parents are not there to give love. They are there to make you feel safe and cared enough so that you can easily love your life and yourself.

The Devil (Tarot): Lovers are in bondage.

Seeking for love

Now that the first trauma has occurred, and the child is separated from his soul essence, he will begin to allow whatever energy he has left to be given away into various timelines and roles. This happens in the physical reality, as well as other timelines that don’t manifest in the physical. This is hard for most people to wrap their mind around, but there are parallel timelines that are running, that contain various aspects of yourself. Sometimes one timeline bleeds into another, but only when it serves that timeline to do so. Generally, fragments of yourself, that are experienced as role identities prevent other timelines from getting in and so therefore naturally inhibit the regathering of wholeness of those energetic fragments.  Becoming whole again becomes very challenging, because the panic and fear of the first trauma keeps the energy of the person chasing various ways of getting love.

When the ego seeks love, they seek something similar to what they learned to be love as a child, and so they will gravitate towards men or women who are most like their parental abuser. This will never work, however, because they are seeking to win love from someone who cannot ever replace the love of self, the presence that they actually are, and so, they will always feel unfulfilled and unhappy.  Often, this unhappiness, if the abuse isn’t severe, can easily be buried beneath complacency, weight gain, absorption into careers and distractions galore – anything to avoid facing that core trauma, that moment when they abandoned their soul, who they truly are, and their profound joy and love of life. Luckily for some hobbies provide and opening or an avenue to that sort of play and absorption. This leaves an opening or window to the soul, to re-enter when an awakening is scheduled to take place.

Time loss

As the individual walks through life, seeking and trying to recreate conditions for finding love again – completely unaware, that the love he seeks is the Self – he engages in contractual agreements to participate in various timelines, as certain roles are needed.  Some of these roles have been planned pre-incarnation. Some of them are negotiated after the fact.  Individuals who are engaged in too many timelines and roles at once experience a good deal of disfunction, disease, and exhaustion. It seems to their consciousness that there is never enough time to do anything, even the things that are important to them. They will then perhaps, if they are concerned, explore books and expertise on “time management” and various other techniques, in hopes of fixing themselves. Others will just give up and drop the ball, become irresponsible, and even angry at life for all its demands and things they need to at tend to in life.  This is where many parents will simply abandon their children, either emotionally or physically, or try to control their children in order to get them to be who they want them to be, thus relieving themselves from having to be who they want to be. This is all an exercise in futility and won’t provide any space, and instead creates more layers of trauma, making it even more difficult to access the original core trauma, where love was lost. In fact, it creates yet another layer of exhaustion, through the business of scheduling, organizing, and controlling every aspect of their lives.  They are just moving further and further away from their soul, from the core trauma, and so further and further away from truly finding the space and infinite time that is available for them to achieve all that they need to in this world. This energy is shared with the world, and has actually become normalized in many ways: overly scheduled children, busy mothers trying to do it all, talents and hobbies and skills that go by the wayside, friends and family who are neglected or abandoned, absorption in games and television in order to check out from sheer exhaustion and energy depletion, a deep faith in the education system.

Bonded to a labyrinth

As I said earlier, the core trauma is actually a soul loss. The seeking of love begins a labyrinth of the individual’s own making, an elaborate drama that documents the search for some form of safety or salvation. Hollywood spends millions on entertaining the masses by presenting all sorts of dramas that mimic or imitate this trauma induced hell of the modern individual. They find entertainment in it because they begin to feel normal with their trauma: since everyone else is seeking love, there is nothing wrong with it. I can blame my parents, like other people do. I can blame my misery on diseases because my therapist told me that my disease is the cause of my pain and suffering.  When people get to this state, which is actually a form of Stockholm Syndrome, the soul is completely blocked from entering the energetic sphere of the individual. There is little to no questioning of ones’ reality, no wonderment, or awareness of the possibility of delusion.   People at this point become very cynical of anything remotely related to alternative healing, health, or the supernatural. The reason is that they are programmed to defend the core trauma, in order to perpetuate the matrix system, which is built on a spider’s web of trauma bondage and bonds.

Their lives become utterly controlled by the matrix system of timelines and egoic analysis, pretending to be truth.

At this point, I am seeing a lot of highly aware individuals broadcast some form of “the end of the world”, as if AI or technology is going to take over the planet, and we will lose our autonomy. Inside of that belief is, sometimes hidden, a powerful force of blame, fear, anger against those who “participate in the end of the world”. This agenda is called The Great Reset. It is of course a fabrication, and it is designed to perpetuate fear and so its own reality through the momentum of resistance. There is no Great Reset unless you want it to exist, and yet there are way too many so called prophets and spiritually aware people who are amassing huge followings around their fear propaganda. The fear they are projecting is a result of the unvisited core trauma of “losing love”. The truth is that they can’t lose love, because they are love. They can’t lose freedom or autonomy, because they are already free. They can’t understand what I am saying, because they are lost in the role of victim and the layers of trauma that are required to play that role with sincerity. None of the ills of society will end in the end of the world. Most of them will end, yes. However, their end, is the beginning of our freedom. We want them to end.

Exiting the Matrix

The process of exiting the matrix doesn’t begin with advice from an expert, attendance at a retreat, finding a new job, or anything else that you can do in the matrix. The only way out of the matrix is to stop looking for answers inside of it, to realize that all of it is designed to keep you from the core trauma, the core of your being, the place where the light gets in, where the ego dissolves, and being-ness, true communication, and true belonging/love are present. Here, the Now, is the only place where YOU merge with OTHER. This cannot happen in the matrix. You cannot force this “unity” through political means and still maintain a civilized, free, and rich society. That way always ends in death and misery, because it must include violence, resistance, and ignorance. That being said, there is no way to help others out of the labyrinth. Each individual must take that journey themselves. We can help each other only through telling our story, perhaps to shed light on certain things that the other is ready to hear, but that is it. There is no way to teach, instruct, or provide a methodology or a solution to anyone. This is a matter of Will, of wanting to look towards the core, to stop chasing solutions in the other; to stop “looking for love in all the wrong places”, to finally be, with Oneself and Whole of the all, at peace, as the storm swirls and twirls around you.



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