I haven’t been posting a month or so because I have completed what has essentially been a year-long cross-country move. The move was a calling that uprooted me from old attachments in order to assist in planting me in a place that is more suitable to my grounding, and my growth. We are all, in that sense, very much as the plants are. We require specific climates and energies that are suitable for our particular biological and spiritual makeup. We are not given a manual for this at birth. This is something we discover.
The truth about human birth and cultivation is that we must learn how to do it on our own. Society and culture and heritage do not teach this – although they do attempt to simulate it. They work for a time, until they don’t. Every one of us, no matter how much we resist, will come to discover that we must learn how to take care of our own energy and that our energy is the very world we inhabit. We are our own caretaker, parent, brother, sister, and lover. The human baby is born on this earth, completely helpless and unable to do anything – even eat – on its own. This is the beginning of our life as slavery. Our rebirth happens when we step into who we truly are, which is not of flesh. Who we are guides the flesh and helps guide us to orient ourselves at every frequency towards that alignment that is exactly who we are, that is beyond anything that an infant, a child, and an adult can even imagine.
We are not the personality. We are not the body. We are not our likes,, habits, or customs. We are not our jobs, our kids, or our social roles. We are not our talents, skills, shortcomings or failures.
We are exactly an aspect of light that has the capacity to merge into source, to dissolve into that source, and to create from it, to project into the higher frequencies, and even the lower ones. The distortion however of the source light happens on the lower frequencies if we confuse them with that source. That confusion is the origin of all the conflict on earth that exists and was design to exist. Lower frequencies that break off from source, become the shadows of the light, the more they diverge away. It is however a fantasy that they can maintain this divergence, and that is why death is inevitable at that frequency. The ego dwells there on that radio wave, and it creates a pulsating emanation of fear and inevitable self-loathing. It cannot “make it”. It fails at “it’s desires”. That is because it doesn’t understand its source emanation, and is trying to distort it into lower frequencies. For example, it will seek love outside of it in the arms of another who has not ability to vibrate from source. Dissatisfaction, pain, and misery are either expressed or buried in capitulation. Many will have to continue their education in their next life. Many in the life after that, until they are willing to become who they are already.
Many of us, and I suspect, most of those who are reading my blog here, and are those who are aware of their light, and are aware of the strange void-like emptiness of it, in relation to the loud, busy, dramatic world that expresses itself in such triumphant fashion every second of every day. We are not of this world, but we are here and we are here to play the music of the higher frequencies, to contribute to a symphony that has become too distorted to recognize, and has even become difficult if not impossible to listen to. Music, as Plato taught, is an expression of the frequencies of the universe, the harmony of the soul. All must play their part. But in order to play our part, we must be willing to learn what our part us. To live in accordance with our inner guidance, which is not his or hers or theirs. The focus is you, for it is you who reads this and who is finding resonance and discord. The world we live in teaches us to find followers and customers – people who like us and will pay us for what we do or say or write. But that is part of the distortion. We are hear together to educate and be educated simultaneously, where the light guides us, where the consciousness shines. If you experience too many bad apples, it is because your consciousness is shining upon them, and not because you are getting punished. Whatever your light has you experience, in life, in dream, in idea, pay attention. You are your own guide from the source and beginning of all things. You will never scream at yourself, even though the ego will scream. You will never punish yourself, even though the ego punishes. You will however repeat over and over, the same lesson time and time again. You suffer this only because you are not willing to learn, to pay attention to the message of love which is simply showing you something – about the world that you yourself have generated for your own benefit.
Someone reading this may deny what I am saying – that is natural – to deny this. We fear the reality of autonomy and our navigation light or consciousness because we don’t want to be alone, and we don’t want to face that quiet nature of our emptiness, our vast expansive energy that can generate itself into all things, into the other, into an object, and idea, and a pattern of life. We fear the lack of drama and our role in it. We want to find “reasons” for living, so we don’t have to live. We want to find “love” so that we don’t have to be alone. We want to be like others, so we don’t have to be with ourselves. We retreat into isolation so we don’t have to be reminded of the congregation of others. We struggle to run from ourselves because it doesn’t feel right. We struggle to be with ourselves because it doesn’t feel right. We do this as a culture, and we encourage it in others.
The ego is often used a culprit, to blame for this. But ego is a concept developed by psychology and it is only an approximation of what is keeping us from our energetic expanse. The entire world is an ego manifestation, when and only when we identify with any aspect of it. It is the mouse in your house, your spouse, your dog, and your house; your job, and your personality, the things you feel give you meaning. And ego would not be here reading what I am writing, nor would it understand it. It would say: this stuff is important, and I can change the world, or they can change the world, or this idea or action is essential for human life. I must fight this, says the ego. The ego believes in its war because it believes it is good and that it understands the whole.
Being in your energy – it is bliss and peace and love – it is what all seek and what all avoid. You are that. You are this. This is your own resistance to yourself. Nothing is lacking and you need nothing more. How long can you stand being such perfect love? Be honest when you ask that question: how long can you stand in being perfectly everything and so nothing at all?
This is love: to fly toward a secret sky,Rumi, The Divani Shamsi Tabriz, XIII
to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment.
First, to let go of life.
In the end, to take a step without feet;
to regard this world as invisible,
and to disregard what appears to be the self.
Heart, I said, what a gift it has been
to enter this circle of lovers,
to see beyond seeing itself,
to reach and feel within the breast.