Writing is something I do every day. I am a professional writer, as well as a creative one.  As a professional writer, I make money from it, and it allows me to live the lifestyle I wish. As a creative writer, I can explore all different styles and manner of expression. However, the past few months – or has it been more like four months – I haven’t written a thing (except for my professional work). I needed to step back and look at writing and what it means in my life and life in general, especially since I enjoy writing on spiritual topics, and wish to communicate from source and nature, to honor our autonomy and our freedom as human beings. In my writing, I was detecting that something foreign was finding its way into the garden of my heart. I knew I had to step back in order to weed out whatever these subtle pests were.

First of all, writing is the primary way in which we present new ideas to the mind.  Our cells, our flesh, our, body, our spirit, other people, animals – all of nature – are constantly communicating with us at different frequencies, and on different levels at all times of the night and day. Writing allows the mind to catch a glimpse of this communication using language and the grammar of language. The structure of language itself presents a wonderful map through which we can attain “knowledge” of all things, of anything, of anyone – or so we think. Writing provides a window to the mind, a perspective, or, maybe more accurately, a map. It is a remarkable thing and is a more advanced or adult way of playing with perspective, realization, and the possibility of knowledge.

When I write, I always want to write from the heart, and let the language be a window to my mind and the mind of the reader. I do not let structure dictate where my heart goes. I let the structure formulate the inspiration of my heart. That is how I play with the language as a writer. It is a beautiful form of revelation, honor, and prayer.  Prayer, in its highest sense, is a form of play, a playfulness with nature, my nature, and the nature of the whole.

But the truth is that most adults are not playing with language. They are living in it. The games are no longer games when we take them seriously. The game we are in now, in the year 2021, is a game of life and death, and it is one that has been built and structured on language, and our absorption into language. We call Greek and Latin languages dead languages, but these are not the dead languages. The dead languages are the languages we carry around in our mind way past their due date, the languages that we receive from the media, the advertisements, the gossip, and the lies. The dead languages are the walking dead. Those are the ones we spend most of our time with. The Greek and the Latin? Those languages are very much alive, not because they are used, but because they are left alone, like the wild bush in the Australian outback, or the lonely tree next to a river on a mountainside. Loneliness is a peacefulness and aliveness. It is a freedom from what is used and abused, tired, and dry

Yet, as we wander about our world and work through our life, seeking more and seeking truth and something or someone real, we forget that our language and its grammar is a mummified metaphysical structure. The virus we think we talk about in language is not the virus energetically. Knowing the virus in language will not help me with this virus here. I cannot, through language, even show you this virus. I cannot show you its energetic marker. Language uses familiar grammar, syntax, and even symbolism to express a reality that would otherwise seem obscure or non-existent without that very familiar language. For example, I see spirits and beings but cannot prove it to you and I cannot use anything in your reality to compare them to. I see auras and cannot prove it to you. I, as a seer, have no way to prove anything I see, and yet I see it, before the studies come out, or before the news receives the information. I saw the virus two years ago in visions. I saw them create it, play with it, and throw it in our faces, as they laughed. Yes, they think this is funny. But regardless, two years ago, what I saw made no sense (nonsense) to the metaphysical logic and language at that time. And, it still probably makes no sense. The source of truth is the heart space – not the mind. The mind is the last to know. But that is not what we have been taught, and so, we live inside old dead news, old concocted and crafted, manipulated information. We live inside a manipulated, well-orchestrated virtual simulation, where we are playing the parts we choose to play – unless we stop choosing to play.

One way to choose not play in their serious game of life and death is to authentically experience and come to know nature – including our own. That is when we see life in its most rarefied, pure, and unusual state. It’s the news before the news. The source before the news. In the soil, there are creatures living in the dark, who are important for our survival on earth. They are more important than the grocery store executives. They create the foundation for food on this earth – they help to decompose rotting material, and transform them into nutrients.  The heart space is also the soil from which the words should eventually grow. The baby emerges from the female womb. The words, the logic and math emerge from the soil of the heart and are expressed through the beauty of them mind. We get to grow and create stuff that we want to create, and choose not to play in the mind games of the elite and the invisible spiritual forces that want to enslave our heart to our mind.

Our society, in its programmed alienated state, doesn’t teach kids to get dirty or how to play and create through their own inspiration. They stop doing that at kindergarten. They teach them instead how to name the flowers and the food; to categorize them and describe them. They teach analysis and synthesis. The don’t teach cultivation. They don’t teach them how to grow and expand them or themselves. Kids in school spend most of their time in books and computers, reading about science and performing isolated controlled experiences with substances that they will rarely if ever use. Not only does this teach kids to ignore nature. It teaches them to ignore their own, as if their own nature were this vast uninspiring wasteland that would be best used as a corporate puppet inside some office building. This is the how education works in system that gives complete hegemony to the mind and its physical structure, the brain. It is designed to cut us off from the heart, our passion, our natural instincts to live and thrive not only to survive, but to also experience the joy of the process and the cycles and season of nature, of becoming, dying and being born again.

The best gardens are grown through the experience of growing a garden, making mistakes, taking wrong turns, losing a harvest, dealing with pests and weeds, and our own failure to notice nature’s messages. This cannot be taught in a classroom. It must be lived. However, our current civilization doesn’t emphasize living life according to seasons, according to wonder, and experimentation. Our current civilization emphasizes success, financial security and control, relationships that “serve” us, and institutions and systems that guarantee our safety both physically, mentally, and emotionally. Our trust in the pharmaceutical and educational systems are an example of this kind of trust. It is not a trust born on experience or intuition. It is a trust born in the desire to maintain control and to maintain the semblance of what we call “normalcy”– at all costs. It is, in fact, a trust that is nourished by fear, and the desire to remove oneself from life. In proper terms, we call that a death culture, a cultivation of death. A cultivation of death uses fear as its life force, and emptiness and lack as its motivation and desire. That is the game they are playing with everyone.

If you are feeling and experiencing fear and a sense of lack, you are in this matrix web of mind and language. You are, at that moment, disconnected from nature and yourself. The way to heal that fear and sense of lack and being stuck is to reconnect in whatever way is natural for you and your body.

A life that is structured on what is antipathetic to nature is a life that is leaning towards death. It is inevitable, and is why millions of people are choosing to rely on logical language to persuade themselves that the road to health is to take a synthetic potentially harmful substance, rather than learning how to tend the garden that is their bodies and their souls together. It is the easy way out because they have been programmed to react this way, and they have feed on fear and lack most of their lives, thanks to the educational system. Death is always, after all, a bit easier than living. It is controlled by a world that we don’t understand and yet promises that we won’t have to lift a finger to understand or be in it. Death is metaphysical and is a complete unknown to us all – and that is why it is so powerful to live a simulation of life that is death, rather than a simulation of life that is modeled on actual life.

Death is the unknown force in our lives – the ending of things, and therefore their dissolution. The death of the something in that sense is a relief of responsibility over that thing.  There are many people who are programmed to not want to live, to not want to do the stuff of life, to play in the garden that is life. Civilization, with its high-tech systems and corporations, has allowed for this possibility. Two hundred years ago, if you couldn’t grow and cook your own food, you would not be able to survive.  Again, this doesn’t mean we should never create systems, just like it doesn’t mean that technology is evil. Both are not evil in themselves. Unfortunately, most human beings have allowed themselves to become slaves to them, instead of masters. The reason for this is that the programming of the brain has become so prevalent as to ensnare even the most astute of individuals. In fact, the more astute, well-educated, and book smart, the more likely they have fallen into the cut-throat programming and propaganda created by the political and pharmaceutical industries, or should I say, industries at large.

Highly educated people – and I am one of them – are those who are highly intelligent and are comfortably using their mind in making decisions and choices in life. In fact, they are proud of it and think of their mind as their greatest asset. The most powerful thing about language is its relationship with logic and math; not the kind of logic and math you learn in school, but they kind you use every day without realizing it. I am not going to get into the details here, but suffice to say that argumentation, persuasion, and various other forms of logical association are key to the power of propagandistic and manipulative language. Most people live inside the persuasive language map that controls them. I often call this synthetic programming or synthetic structures. The ego needs such language because the ego, unlike the sun, cannot shine first without proving that is worthy of doing so – to itself or others.  Things need to seem reasonable. Choices need to “make sense”. Plans need to be made. Agendas need to be pursued. Persuasive language has become so pervasive that most people think it is a normal way not only to talk, but to think and believe. In modern society, a society that seems to pride itself on worshipping science, persuasive language is used to justify everything we do. “Prove it” is usually the response to an assertion we don’t like. We, as a society, seem to feel that a reason must be had for everything. Things need to make sense. Actions need to have calculated purpose. Everything we do has to have a good solid argument as a platform from which to spring. This is why love can have a such a hard time. There is no reason for love, and love based on reasons alone is not authentically love, but is either not love at all, or is love smothered by reasons and arguments and conditions. A love that must be justified, explained, or needs to make sense is the nail in the coffin of love.

So, during this process of programmed synthetic manipulation, most people, particularly men, have lost their connection with the source, sometimes called natural intuition. The union of the masculine with the feminine hinges on this connection with source.  Men are naturally prone to using their mind to choose, create, build, and protect. Women are naturally prone to use their intuition by gathering the whispers of nature and allowing them to stream through art, expression, and actions of love and cultivation.  Male and female energies must find this balance in order for civilization to find this balance. Currently, however, the dominance of the mind structures and strictures has treated the feminine instincts and flow as superficial, silly, irrelevant, unproven, untested and even dangerous. This is not a new thing.  The process of programming the entire population of earth began with the beginning of the written word. Euripides wrote a play called the Bacchae which takes place in a city that is abandoned by all the women. This abandonment of the city by women represents the division between the natural feminine and masculine energies. The results in the play are catastrophic and violent, and a mother ends up killing her son by ripping apart his flesh. The wild nature of intuition, when uncultivated is just as much a danger as the excessive dominance and control of the rational masculine mind. This is why the balance of opposites, of male and female, yin and yang, are the bedrock of human civilization and the planet. Practicing and working with this balance is the challenge of life. Death is what relieves us from it. How many have chosen death before even trying?

The main goal of the alien synthetic programming is use human energetic fields as batteries. They do this by getting us to willingly give up life, living, hearth/mind balancing, in exchange for ease of use, simplistic lifestyle, mental absorption, and a feeling of being in control as an ego . The dark dead energy of the programmed “distorted” masculine surrounds the feminine and demands of her to become more reasonable, and obey the structures of the society to which he is connected. She agrees , because she is afraid of herself, of her feminine intuition, of her wild nature, and her ability to feel and intuit beyond the realm of time and space. The priestess at the oracle of Delphi was always a young girl, the magic of the feminine powers, and the connection to Gaia in her natural form. That is what we have been taught to fear and to ultimately destroy, as humanity has allowed itself to become a tool of alien technology that is designed to sever our connection to life and living, joy and self-sufficiency, the circle of life in general.  All of this has occurred through thousands of years of persuasive spiritual, religious, and scientific language, the dominance of mind, pornography, entertainment media, false science, and political rhetoric and manipulation. All of these are forms of persuasion designed to sever the connection between masculine and female energies, between the logic of language, and the inspiration of intuition. In the end, we all suffer. In the end, we are lost in a map not of our making  – until we choose to abandon it; until we choose to create our own gardens, teach our own children, live our own lives together in the fullest way we know how. 

I haven’t been writing over the past few months because I was doing some weeding out of my energetic field. There were some structures I was relying on, in order to communicate inside the system. I was experiencing a consciousness that was overly obsessed with structure, persuasive clarity, rather than heart and inspiration. For now, the weeds feel cleared, but I know I will find more soon enough. The garden of life and living is a work that is never complete, but is always full of discovery, wonder, and most of all hope.