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Seeking Presence, Seeking the Star

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Life would be so simple for all of us if we did only one thing. Or, rather, if we were only one thing. What is that one thing? That would be who you are. Who you are is who you are.  But most people aren’t interested in being who they are. Instead, they are interested in being something else.  The entire reason why spirituality and spiritual practices exist, the entire reason why religion exists is because humanity, as a whole, feels incomplete in the way they seem to exist, somehow cut off from spirit and divinity.  But spirituality is usually a last resort. First they try other things. A person seeks a better career, more money, a relationships They do this and this makes up their life. But it never seems to be enough. The person keeps trying to make things better and better. After all, what else could be more interesting that constant improvement, constant goal chasing, a chance to be come better than the day before? Since we were kids, haven’t we been taught that self-improvement is a good thing? Isn’t there an entire section in the book store for self-improvement books?

But when the self-improvement seminars and books fail, we might turn to spiritual pursuits and teachings.  At that point, the spiritual seeker is looking to use spirituality and spiritual practice, to get the things he couldn’t get before. This is why there are countless YouTube videos on how to manifest your desires, how to attract your soul mate, how to get rich through intention and soul work. But this is not spiritual practice, this is yet another trying to get better, to improve your life, to become a better person or something better than something else. As Socrates said in the Republic, it is an example of chasing something for the sake of something else, and not for its own sake. The true philosopher – the philosopher meaning the truth seeker – is the one who seeks it for its own sake. In other words, the soul seeks itself for the sake of itself and nothing else.  The seeking part happens because we are lost. But when we are found, we realize we were never lost in the first place – that we have always been who we are. We just didn’t want to be present to ourselves.

Soul work, or true spiritual work happens when we stop chasing what we think is better than we are, and instead open up to our awareness and experience of who we are. But it takes a while to get to that point. So, in the beginning we are not doing spiritual work, but are simply seeking our spirit. It is a bit like trying to find our body in a room that is pitch black. It is present, but we can’t see it. We are present already, but our consciousness is not in the right place. In fact, it seems like this “right place” or presence has very little value compared to the better and better stuff that we have created.  After all, can presence be on TV? No it can’t. You can see presence outside of you. You can’t see who you are outside of you. What you see outside of you is never you, including what you think about yourself. Every thought, every expression through language is outside presence. But we want to see. We want proof, to show others how great we are, how beautiful, how kind, how loving. Many would rather see these things, than just be them. The world is always louder and more advantageous than presence – so it seems. We forget all the world’s a stage…

So, in seeking ourselves because we are blind, we  spend most of our time in resistance to “what is”. In that resistance, we create everything that doesn’t belong to who we are. That is why humanity never stops trying, failing, and trying again.  You, who you are, are inside what is. You are what is for you. This is totally unacceptable in any society or group, and it is an unacceptable thing that begins at a young age, when you decided, usually through someone else, that who you are is not enough in some way, that who you are is lacking – not happy enough, not clever, not beautiful, not fun enough. Something like that.  We begin to move away from what is; we begin to move our consciousness away from who we are and we direct it onto something we’d like to be – another person, a friend, a movie star, a parent – anything. Anything but us. We learn at a young age to be seek out or try to be like others. That is the basis of modern society to this day. The collective consciousness is a pooling together of individuals’ consciousness who don’t want to be present to who they are. As a result, no one is really there. That is why we easily fall for illusions and magic tricks. Very few are paying attention. For this reason, those who do manage to be present to who they are, are seen as strange, powerful beings. Some are seen as crazy or weird. Most people think they could never be like those people, the visionaries, the bold inventors, some famous and some not famous. Most people wouldn’t want to be them, or they secretly envy them, because they seem so careless and free. Socrates was killed for being himself. There are many others. Pythagoras’ legacy was destroyed. All we have left is his triangles. These are the individual pioneers who dare to be what their dreams are made of, what nature has designed them to be. They have allowed their consciousness to be directed by their soul presence. They didn’t ask permission. They didn’t ask for validation. They just saw and did the best they can.

Such human beings don’t have to be rare at all. But most of us confuse power with ego and ego with power. We think that all expressions of power are ego. No, not all expressions of power are ego. Expressions of control are ego. Mozart didn’t write his music because he was obsessed with control. No, the divine literally flowed through him and he allowed it. He couldn’t stop writing music. His music is who he is and he is his music. There is eternity in that, as we still hear him to this day, long after his body has passed away. Our souls are like that. They are eternal and they can manifest in this reality in a way that transcends time and place. But this is not ego. This is a powerful soul expressing itself.  Can you tell the difference within yourself? Do you feel something great within you, that is not ego based, but just wants to express itself, like a child dancing in the rain or playing in mud? Something you know that is magical within you, but you doubt it because it doesn’t fit into your plans or the plans others seem to have of you?  Does it frighten you because you might have to give up something that makes you comfortable? Does it frighten you because you might offend or disappoint someone? What is keeping you from being you as a magical being? How much of your life are you willing to spend on plans, goals, and activities that do not belong to you?  How long will the flower seed try to grow into a tree? When will the rabbit stop trying to behave like the wolf? How long will humanity try to pretend that, in order to be good, we have to be please each other?

Life would be so simple if we would be who we are, fearless and compassionately who we are. There is creativity in that – natural creativity. Inspiration, which means breathing in Latin, is something that is natural to us and natural to everyone, as long as our soul is free to breathe. There is no government, no person, no place that has control over who you are. You are always free, now and forever, in every way. There is no one way to express the soul – everyone ,is different and unique in their own expression. The natural way follows nature. Look to the natural planet and all the creatures on it. Is there something that we could do without? Is there are wrong animal species? No. Only human beings create wrong and unnatural, and we do it because we believe to have lost what we can’t have. We believe we are nothing when everything is what we are. We have become blind to what we are because we are obsessed with become important, better,  famous, and wealthy. So much confusion has given rise to entire movements designed to justify that confusion, the rage, the anger, the sense of injustice and failure that arises, not because of society or the world; but because, simply, we have lost sight of our own breath, our own breathing.

The Star – Rider-Waite Tarot Deck

True spiritual work begins with the will to be present, to be present and learn about who you are. This means being able to make choices between what is good for you and what is not. It means not being afraid to offend others in those choices, and to always honor the soul that you are as you are.  Being present means not requiring drama against this or for that, but simply choosing because it is what is natural to choose. It is not demanding others follow or others shun.  Life becomes a river that flows through you, that you often hold like a cup holds water, and let it go when you are ready to let it go. Your world then becomes a reflection in that water, a reflection of the being as it flows through, as it rises and falls, and as it stagnates. It doesn’t matter where in the river you stand, or what time you stand, the water continues as the rains continue to fall, refilling overflowing – all of it is still you, effortless and unencumbered even where the water meets the shore. This is the meaning of the river and the star.

Awakening: The Ego that Must Shatter

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Awakening is a Threat

Awakenings are always heart-breaking.  The reason for this is that the ego, as it begins to ground itself, forms something like a shell, a protective avatar that is designed to protect you in the world. The ego and all its attachments and systems are attached to the heart space, like skin is attached to the body – it keeps it together, protecting it, and nourishing it.  The ego is programmed to do this in many ways – it makes sure it belongs in society or groups within society, follows all the rules, is considered good, valuable, and productive etc.  This does work for a while – until it doesn’t.  Awakening is not something that we choose. It is something that happens to us. As a result, it can be a shock to the egoic system. It doesn’t like it at all, because something is urging it to come out of its protective shell. And the ego would be exactly right, because awakenings are a natural process of expansion, the expansion and growth of consciousness. The world, meanwhile, doesn’t make it any easier. The world encourages us to stay in our egos, because they attachments we create through ego want us to stay where we are. They too don’t want to lose what we feed them.  There is not a single society in history that welcomes consciousness expansion. Socrates was sentenced to death for it. Jesus was hung on the cross for it. Pythagoras’ work was destroyed. Plato’s school was burned to the ground, killing many of his students. The struggle to be allowed to grow out of old structures is real, and it is what has driven all of what we call the history of human kind, in its attempt to control, dominate and prevent the awakening of human consciousness.

Resistance and Surrender

It is always up to the individual, to either allow the soul to expand, or to remain within the confines of ego. But if the individual resists, they will find themselves in a life of pain and difficulty. They will never find true happiness, because the soul cannot possibly be happy and joyful in a limited egoic structure that doesn’t it allow proper expression and expansion. This is why many people, when they experience awakening symptoms will revert to many addictions and distractions to rid themselves of the urge to leave behind what has become comfortable to them and comfortable to those around them.   They will use the mind to make excuses, to keep it going, to keep the lie alive – anything to avoid the scary prospect of expanding in a direction they don’t feel they can expand to. The more limited the ego, the more restrictive and co-dependent, the more difficult it will be for them to expand out of it. However, the results, if they manage to finally escape, will be enormous joy, a sense of freedom and love that is beyond comprehension.

When the time comes, and the consciousness is willing to let go of the ego, awakening is a natural process of the soul to shed that ego-skin once again, recognizing that the skin is not who “I am”, and never was. This is where the heart-break is experienced, the thing the ego was resisting before. The heart-break comes because this period usually means that the ego’s relationship to the world begins to shatter, and fall apart.  The universe, at first, is very kind during this process and will always give you an opportunity to easily and willingly lose the attachments to the ego-skin, but most of us don’t hear our soul’s calls, and we dismiss them, simply because we don’t want to let go. We want to hold on to the belief systems, the relationships, the agendas, and even the familiar worries and preoccupations. This is what is often referred to as attachment. Letting go of attachment, is a letting go of the ego that no longer truly feels comfortable – it actually begins to feel foreign.  When the consciousness sees this ego as foreign, it naturally and more easily lets it go. It stops resisting and surrenders to the process.

The Problem of Other People

Many will try to allow the expansion of their soul, but hold onto the old attachments at the same time.  This is also called trying to have your cake and eat it too. This too brings on much pain, because the old ego’s ways are no longer able to fit into an expanding universe that is beginning to express itself in wider, different ways.  This pain can easily turn into anger and frustration that others are not willing to follow you on your journey, or even anger at yourself for not being willing to keep your old ways for the sake of those others. If you observe yourself wondering when others will catch up or wake up, you can be sure that you are holding onto what was once your own state of sleep. The egos – and yes, we formulate many in any one lifetime – are by nature an unawakened state, and we generally, once letting go of the ego and its structures, soon find another to take its place.  This is why to be awakened is very challenging, because it is only possible if we are able to completely remain unattached to any egoic structures of any kind – including people around us.   The good news is that it is often the case, that those people will eventually rise with us. However, they will not do so if we force them with expectations or anger. It is always best to let them just be in your presence, and to allow the process to flow through you and into them. That is where the true magic happens, because when you begin to align more with your soul, you are giving permission to others to do the same. All of us are on different stages of our own special journey. There is no right way or wrong way here. We are all headed towards the same destination, which is to completely embody the soul, without attachment to an egoic structure. Jesus and Socrates were purported to be individuals who were able to embody their pure light soul energy while on earth.  Both men knew that they were eternal souls, and were only hear to serve others in their process of growth and expansion. Neither was interested in fame, followers, fortune, or popularity.

Experiencing the Pain of Contrast

The rest of us, who are not yet egoless manifestations of soul, are in the process of working with our egoic structure and the natural flow of our soul. That means, we must confront both the shadow and the light of our existence. The contrast of shadow (ego) and light (soul) is a powerful experience that the universe uses to assist you in the process of letting go of the old ego skin. It can kind of be like using your own soul against (actually for) you! Your soul is light after all, and what shows the shadows better the light of your own soul?  For example, perhaps you have ideas about what success looks like, and how you have to get it.  Your ego programming had you running around, reading books, taking seminars, trying to find a way to get your business or project started, to get the money and the notoriety and respect.  You spend a lot of time networking, and making contacts in the hopes of getting the word out.  All of this stuff is great, but this is not how the soul operates. Yes, the world likes loud, splashy, and catchy, but the soul does not. Your soul knows that every opportunity that has come your way, has come your way like magic, like a gift from the universe, regardless of what the ego does or doesn’t do.  So, here is how the universe might provide contrast to you. Imagine you have allowed your consciousness to follow your soul’s calling – life seems more positive, more beautiful, more magical. However, the next day you wake up, and feel some kind of negative emotion. You lost that “lovin’ feeling” somehow.  This is an indication that you haven’t quite let go of something, that you are still holding onto something attached to the ego.  Your soul will help you get to the bottom of it, if you work with it and ask – pay attention to your dreams especially. Many dreams provide contrast by putting yourself into situations and mindsets that you had when you were younger. These mindsets actually still hold onto you, beneath your consciousness, within the subconsciousness. Your soul is using your newly found bright light to reveal this situation to you. It can be painful to go “back to the past” like that. But this is a gift, and it is also a realization that you never left it in the past at all, and that it has been with you all along. Once you see the contrast, you will see the problem, and that will enable you to clear it. It is really that simple.  The contrast experiences happen very frequently, and it is very common to think that you have back-tracked or have lost your way. This is far from the case. Knowing the truth of who you are involves knowing the whole truth, comfortable or not!

All Work, No Play Makes Ego a Dull Boy

During the awakening process, when we begin to work as soul instead of ego, and allow the ego’s expectations and habits to go by the wayside, we experience our work as something joyful. Life, when we work on that level, is very much like when we were children, just daydreaming while looking at the stars, or playing with stuffed animals, creating all sorts of adventures, or playing house like the adults do. Joy is the nature of your soul, joy in all aspects.  The ego however, regards joy as being a limited commodity that is only present under certain conditions. The ego says: “I will be happy when I get this deal.” “I will be happy when I get famous or rich.” “I will be happy when my business takes off.” “In the meantime, I don’t have time to be happy.” “Only rich people are happy. I am poor.” To the ego, everything takes time and hard work. And that makes sense, because the material plane of existence is slow and does run on linear time. The material plane is also designed to keep you experiencing yourself as a being that doesn’t have enough resources, skills, or knowledge to be successful. It has gotten so bad that there are sections of the population who are creating timelines that tell people that they are victims of other people, or are somehow prevented from having what they want in life because of certain circumstances that are out of their control.  These are all lies to keep most of humanity under control, unawakened, and resentful of those who attempt to awaken them.

Fun with Frequencies

The  soul – our true nature – doesn’t work in the material realm – It works on what could be called the invisible realm.  Some people call it the fifth dimension and upwards, but dimensions are just more egoic constructs so that egos can feel good about being higher up the totem pole than other egos. The truth is, dimensions or not, we are all energetic beings of all sorts frequencies, from low (material realm) to high (energy faster than light).  When our consciousness is focused on the lower frequency realm, things happen slowly and seem hard – it’s always a tough slog, this earth.  Mind tells soul it is limited because of the limited body and timelines.  When our consciousness, however, is focused on the higher frequency realms, our thoughts don’t take a long time to implement. They happen at a rapid pace.  This is why raising your frequency is important – it helps you shed the ego skin quicker, because you can change your entire world with a simple shift in thought programming. In the denser frequencies this is not as easy and usually ends up in frustration and failure.

So, as we rise in frequency, we become more aligned with our soul essence. This does not mean, however, that we leave our bodies behind. No. Our bodies are our home on this planet earth.  It does mean, that we begin to experience our body in a different way, as we start to intuitively understand its purpose in relation to soul expansion.  Ego, after all is not your body. You don’t want to leave your body. Your soul, as it expands, naturally heals your body in miraculous ways. It will make you feel and look younger, heal old stubborn wounds, aches and pains. When you expand your soul, and let go off the false limitations and doubts of the ego, that you once held, your soul can work absolute magic in your world, without you having to anything other than change your thoughts. This is what is meant by creation, and creativity.  The more you consciously connect to your soul, the more you realize who you are unconditionally, and what you want. At that point, you know that you choose the thoughts that you want to work for you in the world.

About that Manifestation Thing

The idea that you can create your world through thoughts is often called manifestation. I don’t talk much about manifestation, even to myself, because you don’t need to talk about it. The soul really isn’t interested in manifestation, because manifestation to the soul is like child’s play or breathing. The soul is by nature a manifester. In fact, the soul already knows it has whatever it already desires – all that’s left for it is to play!  Isn’t it an absurd idea to tell a child who likes to play, to learn how to play with proper technique?  The ego, on the other hand, is the one that wants to gobble up as much information as it can on manifestation techniques.  It has lost its sense of play, and so it needs to learn how to do it. That is the nature of manifestation and the way it is sold as spiritual guidance. It is really just ego-guidance. So that’s about all I have to say on that topic.

Embodying Your Soul

As I mentioned above, the purpose of this earth-school is to learn how to master the energies here.  Our mastery is derived from our joy, the joy of expanding and creating and witnessing the creations of others. As our soul expands in that manner, we begin to see that the soul of whole shines through all things, the dark or the light. That is why neo-Platonists talk about emanation as being a function of the One Light, the highest consciousness, or Source/God. We, as individuals are just fragments of that light, and each one of us can shine into any object we place or focus upon. This is why it is so important to shine our light wherever we can, bring our joy no matter who laughs or grows angry.  Each one of us is asked to dare to be ourselves unconditionally, with unconditional love, no matter rich or poor, high or low. As souls, as light we are all made of equal substance. Don’t let the world’s tricks make you forget who you truly are.

THE ONE THING YOU MUST DO

There is one thing in this world you must never forget to do. If you forget everything else and not this, there’s nothing to worry about, but if you remember everything else and forget this, then you will have done nothing in your life.

It’s as if a king has sent you to some country to do a task, and you perform a hundred other services, but not the one he sent you to do. So human being come to this world to do particular work. That work is the purpose, and each is specific to the person. If you don’t do it, it’s as though a priceless Indian sword were used to slice rotten meat. It’s a golden bowl being used to cook turnips, when one filing from the bowl could buy a hundred suitable pots. It’s like a knife of the finest tempering nailed into a wall to hang things on.

You say, “But look, I’m using the dagger. It’s not lying idle.” Do you hear how ludicrous that sounds? For a penny an iron nail could be bought to serve for that. You say, “But I spend my energies on lofty enterprises. I study jurisprudence and philosophy and logic and astronomy and medicine and the rest.” But consider why you do those things. They are all branches of yourself.

Remember the deep root of your being, the presence of your lord. Give yourself to the one who already owns your breath and your moments. If you don’t, you will be like the man who takes a precious dagger and hammers it into his kitchen wall for a peg to hold his dipper gourd. You’ll be wasting valuable keenness and forgetting your dignity and purpose.”

Rumi, The Soul of Rumi : A New Collection of Ecstatic Poems

The Ego Avatar: Your Artificial Soul

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ego (n.)

by 1707, in metaphysics, “the self; that which feels, acts, or thinks,” from Latin ego “I” (cognate with Old English ic; see I); its use is implied in egoity.

They that have pleaded against Propriety, and would have all things common in this World, have forgotten that there is a Propriety, in our present Egoity, and Natural Constitution, which rendereth some accidental Propriety necessary to us (etc.) [“The Practical Works of the Late Reverend and Pious Mr. Richard Baxter,” London, 1707]

Psychoanalytic (Freudian) sense is from 1894; sense of “conceit” is 1891. Ego-trip first recorded 1969, from trip (n.). Related: egoical.

In the book of Egoism it is written, Possession without obligation to the object possessed approaches felicity. [George Meredith, “The Egoist,” 1879]

The word ego is a relatively recent invention, as you can see in the above etymological reference. Today, most people believe they either “have” an ego or they don’t even notice it all. Regardless of how you relate to it, it is minimally a mental concept for understanding who we are, and maximally, an avatar that we believe is our identity.  Either way, the ego has no true reality outside of its created concept, or what I call the Egoic Structure. It is entirely created from within your mind inside the support of your parents, your friends, and the society in which you live. But the most important thing to know about the ego is that it has been designed to replace your soul consciousness.

The word soul is usually used to translate the Greek worked, psyche, which means spirit, breath, or life, in Ancient Greek.  The soul, in Homeric Greek, is the essence of life. Without the soul, the life is gone from the body. Socrates spoke of the soul as being the essence of the human being. Jesus also spoke of the soul as being what connections to eternal life. The ancient Greek philosophers generally agreed that living life for the sake of the soul, as opposed to the physical body and brain/mind, was the way to true health, happiness, and freedom.  Before the invention of the ego, mankind was by and large identified as being a soul in a temporary body.  This is why, when Jesus walked the earth, he spoke a very powerful and well-recognized message to the ancient world. The soul is the source of our energy, our power, our connection to each other and to God.

But Jesus, like Socrates, did not please the elite powers of the world. In Socrates’ case, the elite were the Athenian leaders, and in Jesus’ case, we know that it was Rome and the Jews.  The soul, and the activity of the soul, and living a life for the sake of the soul, meant not living a life for the sake of the power structure of the world. The soul is a powerful force that only acknowledges God or Source as the ruler of the world, and as the true essence of all beings. However, the political structure, until this very day, has always been ruled for and by those who wish to control the direction of humanity in one way or another.  Sometimes the control has been extremely evil, as in the case of Hitler, when the world learned of what he did. Sometimes it has seemed mild and good, as in the case of Hitler when he was elected. The point is, that humanity has always been under the delusion that being ruled by others has no cost to themselves. However, as Plato noted in his Republic, whenever a political structure is ruled by others, the cost is always either a part or the entirety of your soul. It always leads to Tyranny.

In today’s world, we don’t talk about soul much, because, first of all, the soul is not something that is tangible. The soul is what is invisible to the senses, and cannot be scientifically demonstrated. It is, also, something that we cannot knows. When Socrates says he knows is that he knows nothing, he is referring to the soul essence of life on earth. The soul, in the ancient world, as well as the Bible, is the profound eternal mystery of who we are divinely guided beings. But it is not only human beings who have a soul – all the living creatures have a soul, have breath. As a result, all of them can speak with each other through the soul energy, which is the true nature of telepathy. Jesus was able to heal others because he was the embodiment of his soul on earth. The spirt of God flows through the soul. This is where the wisdom comes from. It is not magical thinking. It is truly the source of inspiration and enlightenment, whether it is wisdom about healing or making music or writing poetry.

From that perspective, to be present to the soul, is to be present to a mystery, the unknown, the invisible, and the infinite. It is in fact, the source of all creative and healing energy. It is similar to the breath, as the definition implies, as that too is invisible, and in its connection to the air, it is something that connects us to the heaven that is everywhere and all around us. This why, when we talk about being in the “now” or meditating in order to let go of thoughts, we are talking about the attempt to experience the nature of the soul.  And, when we connect to our own soul, we can connect to the whole universe, including God or Source.  It is because of our souls that we are able to feel and experience true empathy, telepathy, and love. Many spiritual disciplines and religions are an attempt to connection with the soul. The true wisdom teachings from Socrates, to Jesus, to Eckhardt Tolle, all have the same goal: to bring your present to who you are, to your soul, the wisdom of who you truly are. Your soul will give you all that you desire and help you create what the world desires with you.

However, due to the deep mental conditioning of humanity over the centuries, most people, when referring to “me”, “I”, or even “soul”, are referring to the Ego. The ego is a structure that is designed to imitate certain expressions of soul, but in a controlled and limited way. The ego is very much like a computer avatar or character.  Consider how you might think about who you are and how you came to be who you are.  Most people will start with their date of birth, and move on from there, citing their experiences as a child, and how they did or became certain things, and how they eventually reached the point they are at now in terms of career, health and relationship. The future is where they believe they are moving to, whatever that might look to them. In this way, the ego contains characteristics that have been acquired due to certain circumstances, and it has a certain personality that has been developed in line with those characteristics. This is called a “personal timeline” and, from the ego’s perspective, it is relatively fixed or deterministic. Most people think that their life turned out a certain way because of something in their past, or because of their health or a personality quirk, etc. Modern human beings have become accustomed to trying to explain and understand all aspects of who they are, especially when they seek psychological assistance.  When the consciousness regards life as difficult, or the ego as problematic, they seek help.  Today there are record numbers of people on medications to fix what they believe is their mental health. However, what they are really doing is trying to fix an ego – that is not even real and on a timeline that they unconsciously consented to.

So, the ego is not real, and by real, I mean something that has substance and life on its own merits. Substance is and always will be soul/life/breath, which is the core but intangible essence of the life and consciousness. It is the true meaning of what “is”. The ego, on the other hand, is an artificial Synthetic Structure that has been designed to keep you inside a limited way of viewing yourself, your life, and others. It is designed to replace the soul and therefore your connection to God. It is designed to block you from wisdom, your powerful creative energy, your consciousness in the game. So, the first question is: how did you get this structure? Where did it come from?

The ego, as an idea, was developed from by Freud. I am not going to elaborate on his theories. I encourage you to do that yourself. The ego, as a Synthetic Structure, has slowly been introduced in the population over time by many people, and in many different ways. Some of those who perpetuate the idea of ego as something real about ourselves don’t realize that the ego is not real.  For example, the author, Ayn Rand, was a self-proclaimed egoist in the 1940s. Rand promoted the power of the mind and reason, not as a tool or guide, but as the dominate faculty of human beings.  The ego, she felt, needed to be free from communistic rule. What she was doing was unintentionally overriding the soul. She had, due to years of programming under a communistic dictatorship, lost a sense of her own soul, and so could not express it.  Instead, she went to the other side of the coin, and took up egoism as her cause.  Rand didn’t see that egoism and egos need communism or society or socialism in order to survive. The ego as a structure is very weak. It needs constant validation, constant signs of approval, applause, followers, a fancy Facebook page, what have you. The ego cannot be an individual, although it claims it wants to. The ego, as a result, thinks that being “better than” or “worse than” is the best it can do to individualize itself. In other words, the ego has desperate need to be special. To be special is supposed to replace the soul, and so the desire to be special, to be seen, and heard is the goal of many people, even those who claim to be “spiritual”.

The ego’s need to be special is mirrored, again, in computer games.  In games, we must prove ourselves to better than others in order to win.  You can now see that the ego is in fact, a socially programmed avatar that can now be expressed through the computers most people think of themselves in terms of their avatar, their personality, their jobs, their roles. They are focused on getting more money, more fame, more love, more information, etc.  The problem is that chasing these things, the desires of the ego, is fundamentally unsatisfying to the soul. The soul, your true essence, doesn’t really care about these things and doesn’t want to play these funny games all day long each and every day without any consciousness of what it is doing. But most of us are actually being run by the egoic drive through the  Egoic Structure. Fear of losing the game has us running on a low-grade sense of fear. Fear is what keeps you wanting more of this and more of that. It is never happy with what is and is fearful of not getting what it wants. However, its greatest fear is death – both of itself and the game that it depends on. The soul, on the other hand, never fears death. Why? It cannot die!

The reason why the ego fears death is because the ego is like a false boat that is never stable in the waters of life.  Imitation souls are imitation boats. They don’t hold up very well. Imagine if you believed that the video game you are playing, the character in it, was your real life? While you were being deceived, your body might be sending you messages: perhaps you have a disease or are hungry or thirsty. But you cannot know it because you are too immersed in the game, the life of ego.  Even when you feel your body’s messages, you misinterpret them inside the game. You grab the water in the game when you are thirsty. You grab the virtual food when you are hungry. You don’t survive, of course. Sounds silly, but it truly isn’t. Your soul can feed you in ways you cannot imagine. This is the wisdom that has been hidden from you, the wisdom that is your birthright as a soul on earth.

Society and your ego-avatar have convinced you to play this game and to devote your life on earth to it.  Society in many ways, has been a trial run for the next stage, which is to be able to implement Artificial Intelligence (AI) in a way so that you no longer need to feel any discrepancy between your avatar (Ego) and the soul. This idea, the merging between AI and your body/mind is called the Singularity. The Singularity is designed to completely remove all influence of your soul, which is your only connection to God.  This is what is meant by transhumanism. It is designed to override your humanity programmatically by merging your consciousness into machine.


So how does humanity free itself from this situation? Awakening is the only answer. We must, each in our own way, awaken from this game we are playing. There is nothing wrong with games or technology in themselves. These are just creations/tools/methods of understanding our world. The evil is truly everything that is blocking our ability to wake up, to expand our consciousness, to consciously create as living human beings in the presence of soul and God/Source. In other words, freedom is your choice: will you be the master of energy, of creation on this earth, or will you merge into the machines and become the soulless avatar or NPC (non-player character)? The choice is truly yours.